I've changed a good lot in a year. The woman I am has changed drastically. Rather, I haven't changed much at all - I've finally found myself, standing among the memtal refuse I collected like armor.

I used to concern myself, primarily, with privacy-related issues. As silly as it may sound, but as I've become more comfortable in my own skin, as my own self, I have had to extend my interests such that I'm not constantly trying to HIDE myself. Rather, I've found myself burning, striving, and begging to be FOUND.

Viihna as I know her is one of the most passionate people on this goddamn planet. I have tried time and time again to snuff out my own light. To temper myself. To make myself take up less room. To take up less space. Quite frankly FUCK THAT. More importantly, there is something in me that simply refuses to die. I can't just turn off and fade into the static. To become just another Person. I am Me.

To some, this may sound silly, but I challenge the reader to really examine themself in the mirror. Is the you that you allow yourself to be everyday, is that the You you want to be? Don't look away. Look yourself right in the eye. I challenge you to meet yourself at a level where you can stake your claim to yourself, that you are on your own chosen path to destinations you chart. No one else defines that map. No one else tells you the styles, the manners through which you can express, can be, can interact, can love and live. That's up to you. I challenge you to find the absolute bounds of what that means for yourself. I challenge you to look as far into yourself as you can. I challenge you, myself, all of the world to stare into that darkness where you find fear and uncertainty - grab for more.

Viihna

06/06/2024

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